I was too old to beĀ married, but nobody told me. I guess they didn't care enough. How it had hurt, though, catching bouquets all those years! Then I met Ivan, and kept him, and never knew love. How his feet stunk in the bedsheets! I could have told him to wash, but I wanted to hold that stink against him. The day he dropped dead in the field, I was watching. I was hanging up sheets in the yard, and I finished.